Almost a year after my exchange

Hey fellas!
Oh man...its been so long!
I dont even know if someone is still reading my blog lol. I just felt like writing and updating...
please dont mind the not-using of apostrophes because its faster without and the key on my keyboard is broken...
sooo what has happened so far in my good ol(apostrophe) german life? well...not much actually. I have school...and by that I mean a lot. its a lot of studying. you guys in the us can be so lucky to have "easy" multiple choice tests...even for exams! really. we have essay, analyzing and all these kinds of questions. even for "small" tests. be happy with your school. its great! believe me. :D
I dont want to complain about my school here but its just so much work and I dont have time to enjoy my last years of school because I have to study for freaking tests like all the time!!!

To talk a bit about the time right after I came back to germany...well...of course I was excited to see everyone again and stuff but I had a really hard time adapting back. it was really bad. I was in denial pretty much all the time and I probably still am a bit. I just loved my exchange year so much and the people I met so I didnt want it to be over. I didnt want to find new friends here because they couldnt be as great as the ones I met abroad and I didnt even want to think about my life and stuff that was ahead of me. I kept thinking about the time in ohio and as a huge advice to fellow exchange students: dont do that! its the worst. dont spend too much time thinking about your old life you cant get back anyways! I still dont want to think that thats true because I really had the best time of my life in chardon and I just cant imagine that there will EVER be anything that comes close to making me that happy ever again...so that was my motivation I have had for probably like 7 months after I got back from the states. great right?
after a while, I found a new friend group and they are really great but I just wanted my friends from all over the world back. a reason why I am going to fly to norway in october yay!!!

one thing that just recently happened finally showed me and proved to me that germany isnt that bad and that I love both of my lives equally. both lives are so different and have different qualities that I love and it was pretty hard to find the good things in my german life again. but going on our yearly friends+family-meeting in the beginning of this month was the best thing that has happened to me since I got back from the states last year! really...it was so amazing and now I want to go back to that again as soon as possible. I hate waiting a year for that now but it kinda took over my homesickness to ohio a bit haha...
see, how long it took for me to recover from my "post-exchange-year-depression"? its crazy...it took like 10 months...and its still not completely over. I kind of just got used to the the fact that I wont get the time back and I started to really deal with that and I can handle it now. my chardon visit over spring break helped a lot too!! it just showed me that coming back can be easy. seeing all my friends and my host family again really helped me dealing with my problems.

now I really started to "arrive" in germany again. I know its weird that it took so long and I always thought I adapted back right away because I thought it cant take that long but now that I actually know how it feels like to be "back", I know that I was just covering up my sadness and homesickness and my denial.
I started to love germany again and I also started to look around for universities and courses I want to study after I graduate (again) next year and thats a lot of fun! its cool thinking about that and the future because who knows where I am going to end up one day? hopefully travelling the whole world.
because once a traveler, always a traveler ♥